If I Can't Have You

The Salt Lake Tribune calls If I Can’t Have You “compelling” and “haunting” and Publishers Weekly describes it as “a powerful narrative of one family’s tragedy.”

If I Can’t Have You is the definitive account of the disappearance of Susan Cox Powell from her West Valley City, Utah home December 6, 2009, and the tragic aftermath in Puyallup, Washington when her husband, Josh, killed himself and their two young sons.

Susan has never been found, and there was no arrest made in connection with her disappearance. Utah police closed their investigation in May, 2013. It remains the largest missing person’s case in U.S. history.

The book contains new and previously unpublished information on what remains the largest missing person’s investigation in U.S. history, including:

  • Events before and after Susan’s disappearance
  • Evidence that her husband, Josh, was making plans to kill her as early as 2007
  • New details on where and how Susan was killed and where her remains might be
  • Medical documents revealing the extent to which young Charlie and Braden were emotionally and physically abused before Susan’s parents won temporary custody in the fall of 2011
  • New information on the role Josh’s brother, Michael Powell, played in Susan’s disappearance and his subsequent suicide
  • New information on why Josh Powell was never arrested or charged
  • Details on how the states of Washington and Utah failed Susan and her sons